40 and fabulously......?

The year is 2023 and it looks like i skipped an entire year of not posting a single blog post. 2022 was rather vanilla yet masked wigh a few tragedies. i lost my dearest grandmother and my brother. i guess that explains the space i was in. My love life was flat and actually nonexistent(facepalm) Fast forward to 2023, i turned 40 and look gorgeous as ever(if i say so myself). i have put on some weight though, can you blame me, I'm literally stress free (in the heart matters that is, because i believe that is what tends to affects ones health). i am healthy, i have checked my vitals althou all clear, but i was shocked to learn of my raised blood pressure which i am now closely monitoring. A shock, i tell you. my skin is banging though, my thighs and butt firm (no jelly moves hahaha) a blessing. I love myself nonetheless. Being 40 has been great so far, I exude more confidence. I am appreciative of those who look up to me as a guide, those who value my opinion and input, be it work or social related. It is truly heartwarming. I am sure you are wondering what is happening with my love life (sigh) well it is nonexistent (cries). The pokes don't come by easily, kisses are a rare phenomenon! how on earth did i get here, you ask? Well, its not like there are no gents, there are but those who dare approach are just wack or too young (cries again) I don't even think I've had a kiss all year and we are halfway though, my 40th has not been as colourful as I thoughht. It may still change, i am crossing fingers. One thing that has changed drastically is my going out, i no longer go out as i used to, well who would in this current economy. on Fridays i always feel exhausted from the week's activities, which are mostly work and a bit of exercise, i end up heading straight home to my couch and a glass of my favorite wine or homemade cosmos. I basically lead a routine which I have comfortably settled into. I still read twitter, a lot. it keeps the lonely at bay I suppose. interacting with all those strangers who some have become my daily interacts. I appreciate every single one of those who care to engage, they dont know how much that does for a single lady after a long day at the office l, bless them. Now what is to be done with this colourless life of mine? I think of Bridget Jones a lot who, after years of struggling with finding love, she lets her hair down at some rave camp weekend only to find herself in the arms of her true love. love is worth the wait, I believe, mine is also coming and when it does; it will be dreamy (daydreams). For now, I am here 40, single, glowing, content, curvy hopeful and absolutely fucking fabulous. I am so grateful for not being one of those who are driven by desperation. it is truly amazing. i commend myself. some have had the audacity to ask me why I dont just have a kid (darkies, sigh) imagine! so basically they are suggesting that I hook up with a stranger and find myself pregnant. horrific! we do not want the same things in the same fashion and that is okay. I just smile at such questions, honestly. My only one fear with meeting a person now at my big age is that I may just meet someone much older and the pokes may not be able to meet/match the hunger i possess. that is honestly my worst fear (God forbid). My sister tried to hook me up with a much older guy who was looking for a wife, my fear creeped in and I just couldn't. Men have ailments and I honestly want to be given a break to enjoy my man before I look after his diabetes and gout (cry face). That is a fair ask, surely. Here's to a blissfull 2023 and a fabulous life of a 40 year old spinster (am I a spinster yet?) I don't have cats though, so maybe not so much of one me thinks. Let me finish my vodka and cranberry before I head to bed. i promise to come back soon ...💕